(:

2009-10-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

if only i can be much stronger than i am. if only i wont think about all that's gone. if only i really can move on. if only emotions cease to exist. if only you were real.

2009-10-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

i've decided to carry on..

im gonna leave behind all emotions i still hold for you.

for i aint gonna be a silly girl..

goodbye-

2009-09-07T04:33:00.000-07:00

after i find someone who can help me tomorrow, all these will be over.

cause i dont want to wish for fairy tales.

i dont want to survive on lies.

i dont want to listen to any excuses given.

i was so dead. i was picked up. i was brought down.

let me go. set me free.

you've got your freedom. now its my turn.

he'll help me. he'll.

save me. save me. save me.

i dont want to trust no more.

dont hurt me no more.

you will help me. you will.

thanks.

2009-09-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

its hard when you know your heart doesnt want it yet you have to force a smile.
its even harder when the one who claims to love you dont feel your pain.
what's left is your shadow following me,
and me blindly following you.
will your heart ever turn back to see that stranger behind me?
i dont know.
how long will it take for us to switch our roles?
sunset?
no, the lights on the streets blind me.
sunrise?
no, you're on the run.
perhaps, the answer lies within the soil. which is yet fertile.
it lacks the element.
my soul.

2009-08-22T23:09:00.000-07:00

prelims' ending in approx 3 days time.. gave econs a miss though.. i've really got no confidence in it. but no worries, im seeking help. i sure am cause i'm not giving it up yet. never.

A levels' in approx 80 days i suppose..im sure it's enough to make a very big difference. im definitely not scoring my As now.. but i'll make sure i will. i've confidence in myself..that i wont fail my loved ones (:

to think back and reflect on the past few months, i guess i've wasted too much time getting upset and all. it's true i lack confidence.. and i honestly wanted the support. but nontheless, everything's alright now.. and it'll like this for a very long while, right?

to dearest: it's gonna be tough. even tougher for you.. but i hope i'll see a better you after all these obstacles. it's hard to make that decision im sure. but no matter what, i'll support your decision. you dont have to worry about me. i'll fight on. even harder these months. you dont disappoint me too alright? it's good that you've a goal in mind (: you'll always score, and i believe in you.

2009-07-30T03:42:00.000-07:00

i really miss J1. i miss all the fun days we shared. all the camps. especially orientation two and orientation 09. and of course the times when im still a camper. orientation 08. i truly miss it. og8.. family three.. lovely times..

i miss all the overseas trips. when we all work together as a team. when we cried in each others' arms recalling the past..

i wish we can have the chance to be campers together again. and to run a camp as facilitators again. and to plan a camp together as a team. to travel new places and enjoy what the world have together. to be slos together, staying in a chalet together for a week visiting places and of course, to create the best team of all. to break records once again.. to have something new to miss as much again.. to share the love we have..

i miss the times..

2009-06-15T08:27:00.000-07:00

no need to get excited over phone calls,
we both know the limit to our vocab.
no need to measure the distance between us,
we both know the counting never hesitate.
no need to think about loving,
we both know it hates to wait.
when all is said and done with,
love does not remain.

i'd cry those lonely nights,
those nights i hid under.
beneath the kicks i longed to hear,
a slight little muffle.
it never seemed to me,
that darling you were near,
the love i used to hear,
comes with nothing but a tear.

when he said he loved you so,
did you believe from head to toe?
when he hugged you tight and swear,
did you doubt that love he claim?
when he kissed and said forever,
was forever within your hands?

surrendered.
slaughtered.
murdered.

2009-06-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

it's june holidays now and i realised i haven't been blogging since.....i don't know when. haha.

alright..life's been...quite alright i guess. meeting up with quite a few of my closest this hols. finally found time for all of them. my sincere apologies for neglecting some of them though. but guess everyone made new friends everywhere else too right? (: time to catch up!

and we have to move on...

2009-04-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

woah. like how long has it been since i last blogged. hahaha

alrights. thought today's worth blogging cause it's been real long since i last went out with my family like how we did tonight. (:

was out with hendy at 1st..at vivo just walking around, shopping..haha. bought 2 new dresses ((: shh. haha. cabbed down to novotel after that to have dinner with my family. was really late..but dinner wasnt that bad. although i didn't eat a lot. it's one of those nyonya style buffet (thanks to little nyonya) yepp. haha. then walked about liang court and clarke quay (where eve and i always chill out at..haha) then homed. not that bad a day (:

school's always been the same..but it's the nationals now and everyone's training hard for their matches or SYF. good luck to all (:

i'm turning 18 soon (:

2008-11-29T07:11:00.000-08:00

yunnan's over and mummy's coming back from Korea tomorrow! Hope they're enjoying themselves..lost touch for about a week alr. make it back safe ya! (:

this hols ain't exactly that fun actually. well, yunnan wasn't that bad. but it wasn't fantastic either. maybe for the past 2d/n it was kinda fun. haha (:

DUA's starting. less and less time to enjoy my hols. have to study for 4 more weeks as well. oh manss. so short of time. let's enjoy while we can (:

alrights. randomness. i dont know what to blog alr. 'll come back again. (:

nights ppl. (:

2008-10-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

oh manss, it's the last day of school for JCs alr.

how weird it feels. it's like..*blink* and it's all over. haha. so many events took place. O1, O2, CD-AYL, Chengdu, Line Camp 2, ASSC, New Zealand, Leaders Camp. and of course all the school work, promos etc. next year will be tough. fight on. (: next will be yunnan, DUA, AYL, OELP perth, etc etc. oh ya. O1 2009. haha. it's all like fun fun and fun. not. we still have 30 hours x 3 to clock up this hols. gahhs. haha

it'll be fun. no doubt. study hard too everyone. all the best for A levels (:

the longest wait ever. believe in yourself, you're worth it (:

2008-10-07T06:51:00.000-07:00

so many things to do yet soooo little time.

i hope i can finish all that i want to complete before yunnan trip though.

it's like everytime when you've managed to squeeze out that little bit of time to try to catch up with something, you realise you have more things to accomplish. can time just freeze for a day or something? there's sooo much i'd actually be able to complete. oh my.

but still, i cant wait for all the events that're coming up. i'd want to spend some time with just my loved ones. but seems like it's gonna be difficult. i cant wait for my 3 whole weeks! haha (:

2008-10-04T06:10:00.000-07:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
my mummy sheena wong (:

2. Your relationship with him/her?i just said. she's my mummy! haha

3. your 5 impressions of him/her?
totally caring, lovable, sweet, always there for me, the best word you can use on someone. haha.

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
a lot a lot. but for the most recent one, the promos study kit! haha.

5. the most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
as a daughter, i inherited her stm. haha.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...?
she IS my lover. lol.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...?
she already is. but you can always improve on buying me more toys (:

8. If he/she becomes your enemy,you will...?
li jia chu zou

9. If he/she become syour enemy, the reason will be...?
she always daddy hop. lol.

1o. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
she same, to go out with her and spend time together (:

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
perfect mummy (:

2008-10-04T05:43:00.000-07:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
CHANG YITING (the birthday girl 0410) (:

2. Your relationship with him/her?
4 years classmate and bestie (: loves.

3. your 5 impressions of him/her?
terribly easy going. understanding. lovable. really sweet. perfect listener and the list goes on..(but you requested only 5)

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?
baking me the birthday cake on my 13th birthday! (and loads more actually)

5. the most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
um...um...i've got no idea.haha

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...?
enter IMH.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...?
everything.she's not a jess' lover material. LOL

8. If he/she becomes your enemy,you will...?
forget her nice she was (im a realist. lol)

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...?
cause im too stubborn. lol.

1o. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
celebrate her birthday with her! (we really really need to meet up)

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
ET, special.

12. How you think people around you feels about you?
different people have different opinions i guess.

13. What do you love about yourself?
that i love myself a lot.haha

14. On the contrary, what dont you like about yourself?
unable to be happy 24/7

15. The most ideal person that you wish to be is?
jesscheongxianting (:

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
i love you too (:

17. pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.
the number 1 to 10 in my heart. if you trust that you're one, you're in. haha.

18. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
i've yet to decide.

19. Is 9 a female or a male?
i wonder.

20. If 7 and 10 are together,will that be a good thing?
it depends.

21. What is 2 studying about?
probably something a 17 can study. haha

22. when is the last time you had a chat with 3?
1 day to 17 years ago.

23. What kind of music band does 8 like?
i hope it's jazz. hahaha

24. Does 1 have any siblings?
if his/her parents adore kids.

25. Will you woo 3?
maybe when im single. lol.

26. How about 7?
it's the same.

27. Is 4 single?
does it matter? haha

28. What's the surname of 5?
i'm hoping it ain't a common surname. haha.

29. what's the hobby of 10?
you should have loads of hobbies (:

30. Does 5 and 9 get along well?
i'll try to make that possible. haha

31. Where is 2 studying at?
probably singapore.

32. Talk something casually about 1?
he/she's my friend (:

33. Have you tried developing feelings for 6?
the probability's rather low.

34. Where 9 live at?
somewhere i can reach within 2 hours.

35. What colour 4 like?
i LOVE red and green ((:

36. Are 5 and 1 best friends?
if they get along well..why not.

37. Is 2 the sexiest person in the world?
perhaps. hahaha

2008-10-04T05:32:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANG YITING (:

LOVE LOADS.

take care yepp. (:

2008-09-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

today's worth a post.

SINGAPORE GRAND PRIX 2008 FORMULA ONE

has officially ended!

woah. tonight's 2 hours experience was sure one of a kind. AMAZING (:

i'll look forward to the next night race (:

2008-09-23T21:21:00.000-07:00

2 days more before promos' ll end.

somehow, it feels kinda empty.

i've been waiting, anticipating, praying that promos would end quick isn't it? now that it's ending, why don't i feel happy at all? next year's worth looking for. it'll be right?

OP and CL A will be fine i guess. i'm just worried about promos results. i'm studying hard. really am. and i hope everyone else is too.

it's just kinda sad that promos' ending now because after this, there' nothing we can do to change the path we'll be taking next year. no more 2nd chances.

2008-09-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

promos are here.

all the best everyone (:

5 more days to go before we can all forget about school work for awhile and play like never before! haha. i want to tour singapore as if its my first time here. HAHA.

well, so for now, everyone just take good care while we mug through these nights and give it our best in the day while making friends with 08' promo papers. haha. esp to my council mates, beloved classmates and you of course, study hard. we've got to all pull through this together. we'll all promote and enjoy the last year in jj together next year yepp (:

talking about that, it's promos alr. haha. it feels like just yesterday that i took part in orientation with my fave fave og8 (we should meet out after promos again. haha. ) and SLO events haven't seem to have even taken place! haha. but yeh. it's all over and it's study study study till As. hope this break will be a very enjoyable one.

left with only economics, geog and king lear to study! i'm pretty sure we can do this right. our final exam before op and chinese As which i believe will be extremely easy cause by then we'd have finished fighting the toughest demon of the year! haha. the P monster. (whoever told me this? i know i heard it somewhere. haha.)

alrights. jia you people!

2008-09-07T08:26:00.001-07:00

study camp's over.

happy belated birthday to alyssa and yihao. (:

actually. study camp was really really fruitful. i managed to actually complete my physical goeg. like really ready through all 13 sets of notes and powerpoint. alright maybe 11. haha. but that was such an acomplishment! never though i'd really spent days studying a particular subject. but it feels really cool now that you know what's going on. next up will be human and econs! yay.

so much can happen in just a very short period. how i hope time can just slow down sometimes. im really sorry i've neglected sooo many people for the recent few months. been busy with all the events and of course, the time i usually have is too little to meet up with people. i promise after promos, i'll meet up with each and everyone of them. eve..olivia and of course shufen. i miss them really. and yiting sheena sarah. and many many more. mostly nanhuarians. and of course some jjcians who have always been there for me.

promos will be over really soon. i hope i'll have enough time for me to achieve my 2 E and 1 C and of course for my h1 to pass. then it'll be A levels chinese and PW. talk about pw..i feel soooo lost. let's hope our wr will be good enough by wednesday. do pray hard.

after all that, it'll be so so cool. night safari (: yay. haha.

i really really want to town. badly. but i'll wait. and study hard. everyone else too yepp! jiayou! one last lap before you take that long long break. it'll feel exceptionally great, i believe (:

loves(:

2008-08-02T08:24:00.000-07:00

2nd slo event ended today. it's easier to let go this time somehow. probably cause we all know each other very well alr. although this time there's lesser people, lesser activities, i do feel that stronger bonds are forged. i feel a stronger sense of belonging this time round. it's like everyone's there for each other kind of thing. thank you slos(: you guys are love (:

to my dearest partner mr hendyong (: haha. great job yepp? they're really not that hard to handle with ME around. hahaha. though i'm not sure if they're back to their country yet..haha. (:

leaving for nz tomorrow le. everyone take care yepp, love loads(:

without you, it'll be real tough.

2008-07-21T10:36:00.000-07:00

4 more days to ASSC
12 more days to NZ OELP

oh manss. i'm sorry daddy mummy. really really.

2008-07-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

EVERYTIME - a1

LATELY I'M NOT WHO I USED TO BE
SOMEONE'S COME AND TAKEN ME
WHERE I DON'T WANNA GO
IF I KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE TO DO
IN ORDER TO BE THERE FOR YOU
WHEN YOU WERE FEELING LOW

AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED
WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE
NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT
ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE
THATEVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

SAVE ME, I'VE FALLEN FROM MY DESTINY
YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE
I'VE THROWN IT ALL AWAY
NOW YOU'RE GONE
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO CARRY ON
BUT BABY I JUST CAN'T GO ON
WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE

AND ALL THE THINGS WE EVER WANTED
WERE ONCE YOURS AND MINE
NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT
ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

WE CAN SURVIVE IT
ALL THE PAIN WE FEEL INSIDE
YOU RELIED ON ME AND NOW I'VE LET YOU DOWN
NOW, I PROMISE YOU FOREVER
I WILL BE THE BEST I CAN
NOW, I KNOW WE CAN REVIVE IT
ALL THE LOVE WE LEFT

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

EVERYTIME I KISS I FEEL YOUR LIPS AND
EVERYTIME I CRY I SEE YOUR SMILE AND
EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES I REALISE THAT
EVERYTIME I HOLD YOUR HAND IN MINE
THE SWEETEST THING MY HEART COULD EVER FIND
AND I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY
SINCE THE DAY I GAVE YOUR LOVE AWAY

i can't stand it. i think this song is really lovely (:

2008-07-13T06:57:00.000-07:00

i love today (:

today's like really really really nice. no war. so peaceful. lol. (:

if only everyday's like today. (:

if only daddy's able to recieve me at the door everyday. (:

and not questioning those bags in my hands (:

mummy smiling at my paul frank 7 pack allison picot panty (x

doing something i don't usually do and getting a free bedtime story in return (:

along with a really cute mouse (:

finish my dinner (soup of the day with puff pastry and grilled bbq chicken) at my really slow pace (:

i took 45 minutes (:

spent 234 dollars in a single shop (:

20 dollars on dinner (:

and had my hair cut (:

by hockee (:

bought a green colour mouse that's in the shape of a frog. lol. (:

today's jess' day and cause it's jess' day, today's fantastic. (:

i do whatever i want (:

i go whereever i want (:

today's a carefree day (:

today's stressfree too (:

idiotong's pretty drawing. lol (:

that marks the end of my lovely day.

if only i didn't have to return home to study gp.

reality kills. i guess i was walking in my lalaland.

i'm gonna bathe now to wake myself up from that sweet sweet dream.

the sweetest thing my heart could ever find (:

2008-07-08T03:30:00.000-07:00

not really very long since i last blogged right?

went rail mall to have nasi briyani with eve(: though we planned to have ramen acutally. haha. it wasnt open ):

one of the very few days i'll actually be home at this time actually..haha. can't exactly say i'm home early cause i'll be heading to the airport in awhile to recieve the zhejiang people! haha. coolio. i hope it'll be a fun night(:

past few days have really been fun. watched wanted and zohan. oh manss. zohan's such a disgusting/sick/horrid/dirty/corrupted movie! haha. lousy show. lol. wanted's good though, i must say. better than 21 at least. 21's average. haha.

trekking yesterday was not that bad. haha. felt a little uncomfortable towards the end though. but luckily it was the end. hahaha. walked around a little and bought quite some stuff for others but not myself. let's see, shall shop this weekend huh. haha. maybe sat. cause sat night will definitely be burnt. yepp.

i think lessons' getting better lately. lesser homework, less naggy and more substance. keeps me more awake. haha. those tests are like..ahhhh. haha. but i think i'm getting a hang of failing but not that badly. trying to be just average for the current. haha. trying hard to be average. when the mood sets in and i feel like studying ( when i dont know.) i hope i'll score better though(: haha. cause now is really just average. hopefully not below average. lol

(:

no more secrets i'll say.

2008-06-22T08:40:00.000-07:00

school's starting tomorrow. happy? upset? i guess it's a mixture of both. i want to be in school like how i used to, but yet, i dread all those on-coming tests. maybe. maybe, i'll learn to accept. let's hope things won't get worse. well, change for the better(:

2008-06-14T00:31:00.000-07:00

haha. here to blog agains.

proud to say, i've yet to finish my work. i've hardly touched any how to even finish right? ok. i did do some. but they're really little. i promise i'll start soon. really really. oh man. i just can't run away from this right. right.

haha. i'm not making any sense am i? i'm going to just take a nap 1st(:

i promise to cut at least 100 news articles today. (:

2008-06-09T00:03:00.000-07:00

home(:

feels great, really.(:

looking forward to soo many things. all the outings, bbqs, SLO((:, NZ. before all these, i've got to study for CT. kills joy. can i just forget about it for the time being? but outings will last till mon. followed by retreat on wed. that means, i've only got 3 days to study and finish my homework. hahahaha. i'm going crazy.

perhaps, it doesn't feel all that great to be home. oh well (:

2008-06-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

currently in TAIWAN

ok..so it's been great fun having to just relax and forget about all the work i have at home. perhaps it ain't that good afterall cause i'm starting to be really really really worried about my studies. it's not that i was never worried. it's just that now, i can feel how tough it is to manage my time, get everything right. so many worries, so many things to do. oh well, if only there isn't any to do list.

gp enhancement project
project work
study for CT
gp cuttings
read great expectations
homework homework homework

that's a lot. A LOT. okay. so tomorrow i'll be back in singapore and start working on all this. so much for looking forward to returning home. now, i just want hols to last forever. till i finish the above tasks.

nights(:

2008-05-31T04:07:00.001-07:00

I WANT TO BLOG

uh, yeh. haha. but i've got no idea what to blog. oh manss..

just bored. oh well.

went out with eve last night after dinner with mr goh, kelman, alyssa and eve (:

hope shuff'll be free tomorrow to go out with me. if not..oh gosh. this hols is just so screwed.

up till now, i guess i can proudly say. this is a boring boring hols.

oh manss. and i realise i have to study but i ain't. what's with all the upcoming common tests can someone please update me? i feel so strange.

let's hope today'll be the worse this hols. don't let anything beat this. i'll die.

take your sweet time.

white lies

2008-05-18T21:00:00.000-07:00

oh well. blog blog blog. i'm sorry i know i shouldn't be blogging now but still, i cant resist the temptation of blogging.

i thought i'd have a lot a lot to blog about before i opened this window. but now, i've got no idea why and what i wanted to blog on. oh my.

alright. probably cause i was suddenly reminded of og8 and f3. dont know why. but those memories. oh my. they've got no idea how they'll just make my cheeks feel warm. (:

if you've never wondered how, wondered why, wondered when, you've lost. lost the precious memory, the unforgettable journey we took, the time treasured, the love shared. extraordinary. fantabulous. (:

cause everytime i set my heart to say, i'm stopped. like a spoiled tape the recorder can't play. he've put a stop to my emotions so that they dont flow out of me as easily. i know i'll regret. someday. someday when i realise i did not treasure all those around. when i'm afraid to show. when all i cared for was the consequences. no doubt i'll stay the way i am still. but now, with a little more courage, i hope.

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
You taught me to try

2008-05-18T20:31:00.000-07:00

i suddenly noticed today's date. 18th of may. nothing special.

but come to think of it, it's been 5+ months since the start of school.. that seems really long..like 5 months have passed already! oh my. i don't even know how all this began and looking back, sooo many things have been done and over. o1 og8, 08A02(PAE), o2 family 3, YOG, CD-AYL SLO, 08A02, chengdu, investiture, sports meet and now line camp. amazing ain't it? i feel so blessed.

counting the days, 31 days have been spent on camps. and we all seem to think that we've spent a lot a lot of days together already. but it's only 139 days in total since the 1st day we met. to think we've only got less than 730 days together. and now, less than 690 days togther. and everyone can only live on an average of 25550 days if you live up to 70 years of age. the number don't really look all that big does it? and i've lived for 6248 days i don't know to put only or already. i keep having this feeling that 17 seems sooo old alr. i've done so many. gone through nursery, kindergarten, primary, secondary and now junior college. oh my. but it's only 6000 odd days. feels weird. hahaha.

ok. i don't know why i'm concentrating so hard on the numbers. perhaps i need constant reminders telling me i need to really treasure time spent. think hard (:

2008-05-06T00:35:00.000-07:00

alright. i shall blog since it's such a special day. my day(: haha.

nothing much for this year. just hope for everyone to be happy and of course, for me not to be retained and infact, FES! that's impossible btw. haha. and SC to be enjoyable.

loves(:

2008-04-07T08:48:00.001-07:00

200th post. maybe i can make a wish.

i hope i can have super powers that can make all my worries disappear.

prioritize. that's the word.

2008-04-05T21:41:00.000-07:00

what a busy week. all the council stuff. rally. school work. quite a few tests this coming week. oh manss. campaigning too.

that's so not what i want to hear.
the painful truth.
your agony.
just let go, please.

spending too little time with my loved ones. shall catch up this week. treasure(:

2008-03-30T04:12:00.000-07:00

oh manns. oh manss. oh mansssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

CD-AYL ENDED. crap. it ENDED. tell me why. how i dread to let go.

as usual, camp days are over extremely fast. and really, i hate it.

I LOVE SLOs(: we shall stay this way forever and ever.

alright. let's skip the details this time round. only important things(:

ice cream at marina(: harbourfront. you've got no idea how freaked out and worried i was when my campers went missing. oh my god. songs of the sea(: AYLC night was great! i was like so damn high with joanne right from the start. hahaha. and the mass dancing was just so so fun! the chinese vs english. seniors vs juniors cheering session was like wow. haha. loves(: cafe cartel at IMM(: gala dinner!haha. dint know huai ching's just a chinese guy. haha. SLO dance((: mass dance((: chori chori((: cheering((: but qiu shi had to leave that night. for a moment, i felt so lost. gahhs.slowly, all the campers left and that, makes the end of the camp.

thank you GTS(: you're like a daddy to us and i hope this special relationship between all of us will never change. take lots of care(:

and of course my admin group 7 partner Ng Jie Heng(: thanks for being there with me throughtout the camp. without you joking and helping me, i would've died xD sorry for being too emotional at times though. remember only the happy moments yepp(:

thank you Idiotong for making the performances so fun(: really enjoyed the dances. great nights(: do smile more. stop dao-ing me i tell you.

and Joanne Tay! oh my oh my. awesome lady(: sleeping buddy and everything. stay close yeh(: loves.

and all the other SLOs not mentioned for making this camp so successful and unbelievably enjoyable.

last but not least, my lovely campers! it's hard not to cry when such a nice group of campers leave. perhaps there's this little difference in our culture but still, they felt so much like my kids. people i've been taking care of, looking out for, worrying about. such a sense of satisfaction when you guys enjoy yourselves and show me that smile. never will be forgotten(:

returning home, to you.

2008-03-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

alright. feel like blogging though i dont know what i want to blog about. let's see..

so today we did the sewing of the banner at my aunt's house. it was really fast i must say and i wasnt much of a help there xD haha. i had fun just pulling the cloth. how interesting. and guarding ends. right. so after that we kinda rested while waiting for simon and all 3 of us fell asleep. haha. went west mall. bought the stuff i need. met some of the other SLOs and left while they have dinner.

daddy went for a movie with yang. how cool. haha. its been more than 20 years since his last movie i think. hahaha. and the one they watched was a cartoon. xD

silence does not mean unhappiness. sometimes, i'm just get too tired of telling, too tired of sharing. certain things need not be told, need not be explained. i thought.

i've been wondering what i've been doing ever since o2 ended. or even after i don't know when. i realise i'm enjoying less of what i'm doing. although there's still this sense of satisfaction after every challenge, i don't see myself giving my best and showing much enthusiasm in participating. no excuse such as sick or moody. it's just not in me anymore. i hope to find it back soon though. SLO is really something i can't afford to regret not putting in enough effort. perhaps i've been thinking too much about things that are rather redundant. or maybe half my heart is eaten up. well, recover fast jess.

2008-03-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

oh wow. i was made soooo high at LGS just now that i want to blog badly.haha. honestly, it's the 1st time i really come so close to some of the SLOs. like..never really talk to them during previous meetings. just feel strange..prehaps gossips do bring people closer.haha. then i guess i need to brush up on that topic cause i'm often caught up in my own world.haha. SLOs really aint as unfriendly as i though actually. not that i thought they are. just that i dint have much chance to interact with them. alright, maybe i ought to feel guilty for not even trying to understand the people there. okok. so after today, i believe everything will be much better(:

school was really long today. till 5pm. but school felt alright today. hope it'll be better(: but i really dont want to fall asleep during lectures and tutorials anymore in future. ohwell, i dint fall asleep. i went to sleep.lol. i feel pretty bad for the econs lecture leh..gahhs. nothing much i can do alr.haha.

tomorrow'll be sewing. hope it'll be fast and the result will be satisfying. if not...hahaha. GG.

alrights. i'm feeling sleepy alr. nights(:

2008-03-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

although i keep telling myself i ought to sleep early tonight, i dont know why i just cant. probably the effect of recovering(:

life's been just boring recently. although SLO made it less boring, life is still kinda dry. maybe cause we had too much fun previously we forgot we cant remain that way. oh well, tomorrow'll be a better day i know.

SLO dinner at swensens was great(:

somethings are just like shooting stars. unbelievably awesome.. however, they disappear unbelievably fast too.

2008-03-17T07:39:00.000-07:00

alrights.it's been real long..haha

so well, being sick is a really nice process just that it's physically tiring. haha.

just something i want to add on to previous posts. i saw a shooting star while star gazing on jj field(: coolios yeh?haha.amazing.

alright. i think i've got nothing much to blog about alr. lol. what a waste. oh ya oh ya. og12 outing was great except the movie part.haha. today was..oh manss. i'm the vice chairperson of A02!i guess i'll just have to learn to love attendance taking yeh.haha.

that's all. nights(:

thanks to all who knows i'm sick and actually showed that they care(:

2008-03-12T21:55:00.000-07:00

i need to post cause this is super amazing(((:

yong qiang has the same surname as me! CHEONG. haha. and its both the same zhong in chinese. it's superduperuber rare canss.haha. you find me 1 more i treat you to dinner.he's the 1st i know in my 16+ years!lol.

somehow, it got me real high.haha.

og12 is just so cute. and now, they're organising a study session. they're really very cute.omg. new found love; og12 (:

now everyone knows i'm jurong east secondary school. lol. funny huh.

2008-03-12T09:54:00.000-07:00

SLO prep camp was just so awesome(:

the 6km but don't feel like 6 km run was really cool. haha. but tiring.

joanne injured her foot. take care yehs? ((:

leaders night was HIGH. but not as high as previous. still, i enjoyed myself(:

eweb was not e at all. but a group hug session. warmth(:

SLO partner: JIE HENG(:

slacked our day away in the LN till wet games. hahaha. the best activity so far in these 4 days. din't want to join at 1st but the buckets came flying. haha. the field never felt so great(:

continued slacking in the LN after bathing and totally delayed our dinner. i love f3(:

i miss shufen. i miss shufen. i miss shufen. only she can save me this instant. i need you to help stop the tears. ):

maybe i just need a little more time to adapt to this new feeling.

2008-03-07T06:02:00.000-08:00

after reading a few blogs, i realise how much i miss og8. but the fact is, we can never turn back time and return to where we started. went to the bball court with og12 today and the feeling's completely different. how i totally won't play bball back in nanhua but was able to put myself in the game and just let go in jj. og8 made it all possible. although og12's really bonded, there's still this slight difference between us and the campers. the bonds formed will not be the same as in og8. the feeling of going through the entire camp together, working as an og, adapting into a whole new environment together. how our passion for the school and og led us to becoming ogls in o2..i'm totally looking forward to og8 dance(: og12, stay as close as you can cause you'll never get back the same feeling and joy again.

2008-03-04T07:10:00.000-08:00

so long since i last posted yeh?haha. too lazy to come online.

o2 camp is just so so awesome. lovely campers i've got.(: Michelle Szehui Muneera Yaya Shuxian Siqi Shurong Germaine Louise Valerie Lingling Siti Meizhu Dominic Jonathan Leslie Alex Chiehsuan Walter Yongqiang Gregory Nicholas Limther Justin Junyang. Thanks for the joy, fun and laughter(: haha. so cliche. but nvm, I LOVE OG12((: just to name 1 of the few sweet things they do. they served us OGLs supper on the 2nd night. coolios(: and to Jessica Jamie Chongwai Benny, you guys are great OGLs(:

went terminal three on sat night for dinner and stuff with mummy daddy yangyang. went hendy's house for his house warming then towned with simon howsun delwin and hendy. funny huh?lol.

now i'm just looking forward to the next camp.lol

nights(:

2008-03-04T06:20:00.000-08:00

way back into love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

so sweet(:

2008-02-23T06:33:00.000-08:00

2nd post of the day. yeh. i've got nothing better to do.haha

went for nicole's birthday. we figured cheong family's the best man((: haha. cause everyone's like so damn cute.LOL

and i'm super high tonight. so can someone go get ziwei aka christopher to stop his chimistry lecture. he super emo. and he's finding a spit-bitter-water buddy. volunteers?

i'm so dead tomorrow. i'm going orchard with olivia and julia. but i have f3 meeting at don't know where and time. and nai nai's dinner at night plus 412 gathering to watch L. oh my.

thought i'll be able to have 2 nights of undisturbed sleep but mummy's gonna wake me up at 8 tomorrow morning to have breakfast together. but nvm, breakfast with mummy daddy and yang's just so nice(:

2008-02-22T22:47:00.000-08:00

i'm superduperuber happy cause i slept for 12HOURS last night. it feels damn good not to be awaken after a mere 3 hours of sleep k. haha

alright.yesterday was pretty fun. i think i got to know some of my campers better and that's really good. but i don't really want them to treat me like an ogl. like..i want to be friends with them. and how cool, i've got a camper who takes the same combi as me in my og! cool right cool right. in a SM og somemore. wahaha. congrats to her successful appeal. and to hendy too(: welcome to AM(: haha. so i have a camper to bring with me to mass lecture on mon. haha. and i'm really really happy to see og12 jumping and following the actions when we were cheering. although they cheer only when i prompt them to..which kinda made me upset for awhile.

lunch was great. kfc mac and pizza. everyone was kinda hungry alr i guess so we ate quite a lot. but there was still a lot left. haha. wasted. debrief and everything then f3 time! actually some of them wanted to do the banner and i wanted to go out with shufen 1. but simon wants to see us. lol. so went ops room lo. went back to nanhua with jieheng for the alumni dinner. the dinner was okay la. saw a lot of ppl i know. haha. then back to jjc with jieheng. the ride back was funny. we thought the gate was lock lo.haha. he wanted to climb in. LOL luckily we dint cause i figured the main gate's not locked and when we went in, we realise the security guard was still there. haha. met kelman they all. mr leow brought all of us to dinner. quite fun. haha. then home. oh ya, the journey to the coffee shop is the best ride ever manss!hahaha. then he drove jieheng shuyee and i back to clementi. slept at 1am(:

weiyi and si ian appealed into jjc and got in(:

heard jin xing's coming on monday too omg. but still(: haha

gail appealed back to jjc is it? omg. i feel that i've totally neglected and drifted far from og8 cause of family 2. quite sad right. haix. i never even like talk to them in the canteen when i saw them gathering at the table when i left for alumni dinner. blame myself for not spending enough time with them. i miss og8 so so much. just read annabel's blog and it seriously upsets me.

2008-02-21T08:37:00.001-08:00

wow. i just talked to joel on msn..like wow..i din't know he talks to girls..my impression of him was really bad. haha. and omg. weiyi and si ian coming jjc.haha..i guess we'll be classmates again then. 412 reunite. haha.

congrats to singapore for winning the bid for the 1st ever YOG(: omg. i love the atmosphere there just now. although ushering don't seem to be as fun as those cheering at the grand stand, i think time managed to pass rather quickly. and after running over to the grandstand, it was seriously fun fun and fun! luckily scissors was near me after they announced that sg won. haha. if not i'd feel so lonely la. so we mass danced as though we've never mass danced for damn long.haha. the feeling was just awesome. all the silly moves haha. but it was just so wonderful when we do it together at padang. JJC BEST MAN(: haha. had dinner with f3 and went home. i guess i was a little too tired so i wasnt really in the mood to do anything at all. apparently, i aint sleeping now that i'm home either.

sometimes, the feeling's just weird.
i dropped it
things left unsaid
laughing at her own ridiculous thoughts
until i think through it clearly
i'm dying.
(random)

2008-02-20T08:51:00.000-08:00

hello

tuesday was the release of results..i got into JJC(: ok la..not surprising..haha. was late in the morning. so sad la..but nvm. had a lot of fun with them and mr leow in LT5. i love the langhuayiduoduo song((: haha. called my campers and went to sembawang to look for some og13 camper DAVE. he had got friends in his house and i think they were all wondering what i was doing there..haha. came home then to bukit timah plaza then to school agains. lol. it's just so fun mans. i enjoy cheering so so much(: i love our laces man. just so cause it's f3's (: and the big big tag cum pouch. fooled ard. lecture was bad..then sleep! thx retard and idiot for the sleeping bag. but seems like they had a lot of fun cause of the extreme coldness.haha. mr leow went to join the guys at night and according to christopher, he kicks and punch and night.haha..

in the morning was mass dance and everything. mass danced with how sun. i don't like it when christopher keep saying how sun's not my dance partner anymore because he ps me for someone else alr. aww. then was morning pt. quite fun..i can't can't can't do legs raise for nuts. then cheer cheer cheer again till we had to get ready to welcome the campers.

doing the welcome to JJ this way please ain't as fun as i thought. oh well, it's fun..but somehow i wasnt quite energetic when doing that. wait. i suddenly feel hungry. i feel like eating something really nice..ok so we welcome our campers but they're in their wrong ogs. saw jia cheng and broderick. big surprise manss. i thought they going poly with the rest of them..coming to JJ is a much wiser choice(: haha. then saw a few more nanhuarians. the lessons were really boring..then got into out right ogs and ohmygod. broderick's in my family in og 13. gahhs. it's not nice to have your ex classmate in your family is it? and justin's in my og.haha. played some games..i think my og's really not that bad considering it's only the 1st day. yepp. ((:

yog rehearsal at padang after that. quite fun la.haha then back to school..the debrief and everything was..AWESOME man really. then we had some time with mr leow before we left school. shu yee's a really nice girl to talk to((:

all the best to those who have left JJC..don't worry and remember to bring our spriits over . positive attitude!love<3

i don't know why some things no longer seem that fun anymore. the feeling's just not there and sometimes i feel like leaving. just when everything was really good, you have to change the situation, i just want some time on my own. threesome.

2008-02-18T08:42:00.000-08:00

alright. shall blog about yst 1st.

i dint really sleep much cause mummy woke me up at ten to go have breakfast together..breakfast was nice though(: went bpp after that.. og8 came at about 3+. i admit i'm not a really good host cause half the time i leave them alone to decide what they want to do. so sorry..they were great guests though(: cooking instant noodles was fun with ks and gail. hahaha. played daidee and mahjong..watched tv and yeh.

today's great. serious. haha. eh. actually not all that great la. haha. went dental in the morning..cool i could wake up late(: then had breakfast with daddy before he sent me to school..i thought civics' at 11am but seems like i was wrong. the notes were really sweet though(: i'll miss all of you in 08A02 lots lots lots. such a cuteee class i've got for pae. lovess. mr goh showed us a documentary during geog..it's about the earthquake in kobe. coooolio. i love that manss. and it reminds me we're watching blood diamonds tomorrow. right?haha. i want i want. ponned econs. haha. took quite some photos and went jp with hidayah and mel. oh mans. what a chat with them.. for the very 1st time yeh. back to school and had lunch before yog meeting.

yog meeting's AWESOME. oh mans. best la. haha. we're so gonna rock padang xD mass dance was really fun with christopher and i was like really high during mass dance today..haha. the last dance was seriously long and i don't like.haha. cheering was way cool man. everyone's so united and it's so close to perfect((: can't wait for yog!yay. then the ogls got scolded by mr leow in the LN. kinda sad la. haix. then we had family meeting outside ops room. sorry i dint really help..went for dinner with idiot retard and woderen(: haha. my mum left her keys on the door. how cool right?haha.

i'll definitely miss all those who're leaving JJC. i don't believe everything's happening so fast man. really..it's really sad to see people leave. gives me heartache. oh mansssss. especially classmates and family mates.

courage, i lack

2008-02-16T22:29:00.000-08:00

alright. shall blog.

ogl camp was seriously fun. maybe cause all of us are ogls so nobody's like ps when doing mass dance and everyone's super loud when cheering plus everyone was just so high. (:

1st day dint feel like camp at all..had mass dance prac then everyone gathered in the hall. f3!f3!!F3!!!haha. we rock(: then was mass dance and dinner then family time! yay.happy happy(: dance with howsun for all three dances.coolio. but dancing with him means must stand infront. howsun to blame for being so good. haha. then emo time. oh mans. it's really sad..i can't stand seeing people leaving so fast. we haven't really got to know each other to the extent that we'll stay close after we part hence, i really can't let go.it's like..taking a really big risk of losing them for good. alright. not suppose to be an emo post..back to camp. night games! it was so damn short.haha. then was lecture time! 1st lecture in the hall i almost fell asleep.haha. but must try my best to make my eyes look open. oh and i made an all meals buddy during the camp.christopher!haha. after lecture was wash up and lights out. our family slept together. sounds wrong..but yeh.haha. its funny when you just look at the whole hall cause everyone's sleeping towards the middle heads towards the 'fence' which serves no purpose.haha. christopher tried to share some jj spirits stories but they all failed in scaring me. damn. talked to joanne before we slept(: nice knowing her.

2nd day!
the fire alarm rang at 3.30am and everyone started to run to the old parade square. this is super scary. after that was pt familydance breakfast telematch massdance lunch kinetic warfare lecture. somehow, pt wasnt really tiring with the ogls. everyone although tired, continued to run and cheer..that's the spirit man(: family dance was great. i admit i felt really ps but wth!haha. f3 dont ego again. hahaha. telematch is fun (just that kinetic warfare better)haha. i threw at least 5 water bombs in that minute. it's so cool now that i recall.haha. kinetic warfare! i love og12 really. hear how we cheer and you'll understand. but i'm really sorry cause i realise i keep running away when they're briefing us. and the way f3's bonded. so cool can! i esp love spongebobbanjia!(: i tried to stay awake throughout the lecture but so sorry i think i nodded at least 20 times. haha. after that was f3 dinner! went to jp to buy our food and headed to some blocks nearby. gossiping with the girls are just so nice(: haha.

oh manss. i'm really gonna miss this family of mine so so so so much. just as i hate to see them slowly leave, they have to. those cheers. songs. dances, secrets, meal times, wet games, night games. basically when we all go crazy together. i'll miss.

heartache

2008-02-14T07:14:00.000-08:00

oh right. i forgot to blog about us playing line catching and freeze and melt in school yesterday. so primary school but seriously, i figured i'm no longer that fit.haha.

today's v day but v day not really v day cause it was only 2 secs i counted.

so we did some gift exchange in school today..the cl teacher was like did you guys discussed to do this? of course not..we are super sweet teens((: haha. kelman and jiarong gave the girls roses. how sweet right?((: thanks loads. everyone was like busy exchanging gifts. i love today. but things got a little boring.. i din't pon anything today!except lit. but that's cause i decided to plan THE BIG THING with kelman. haha. soooo cool can. dante's peak's super duper nice. the chinese movie was nice at 1st. watched for 45 mins. slept for 45 mins partly cause the movie's getting boring and he is so damn gay can. i really can't stand it. alright. civics is just fun la((:

after school was boring boring boring. except the 2 seconds. went to sit ard with some f3 ppl. it was funny how how sun fed me that siewmai. oh my.haha THEN, the fun begins!haha

mr goh drove kelman, alyssa and i to his block there then we walked to jp to look for presents. seriously, i can't stand my blurness anymore. i actually panicked cause i thought i lost my phone and kelman was helping me find it in my bag. then, i found it on the car seat. ehem ehem. haha. so we went jp to look for a present. super cute can!haha. went back to jjc to pick an yu and peiqi and headed to her work place!coolio. we saw the f1 racing car. oh my. super cool cans.haha eve joined us there. it was seriously fun and just fun. haha. we pretended to be interviewees looking for jobs. haha. and we are suppose to be from NANHUAHIGH(: the interview was super funny. then mr goh came in to hide and blah blah blah. shall not continue. it's just super interesting!haha. then the 6 of us went for dinner. actually is 5 cause eve went home. dinner was great. riverside indonesia restaurant. the food's pretty good. shopped ard the mall. i don't know what mall's that but they have really nice gift shops. and it was home.

i love 08A02 i love og8 i love f3 i love you(:

thanks to everyone who gave me chocs, cards, flowers, candies. appreciated. km really shoudn't have gone to buy that m&ms. it was really nice of him though.haha. i only gave him a piece of truffle! alright. oh and loh yee that pocky too!

overall, v day was fun(:

2008-02-13T07:35:00.000-08:00

went to school without daddy today. haix. when i walk into the old parade square, the ah-ah song was playing alr.

ponned till 12 then went for gp and geog. time passed really quickly during these 2 tutorials really. haha. dante's peak is a nice movie manss. radio's playing goong's song now. saddd. so school today was fun(: except the stoning moments. oh yeh. played asshole daidee in jjc for the 1st time. haha.

after that, ran up to LN just to recieve that schedule. lol. then went for f3 meeting and we weren't even a minute late. in fact, we were early.haha. mass danced. so sad cant mass dance with how sun for mambo.but nvm, chengyi's nice too(: and oh mansss. our og flags all super cuteee!((: SPONGEBOB. haha. oh man oh man. reminds me of yongjin patrick the starfish!haha. not going out for movie with them tomorrow anymore. sad. so after all the dancing, we fooled around. i really like the ops room you know..so fun.haha and i was a little high(: went to don't know where to have dinner..chris and hendy chose diff routes and we had to choose who to follow. haha. wanted to go with chris cause he like so loner.HAHA. but how sun won me over to the other side with ehem. his charm ya. LOL

walked to the bus stop with chris and took bus with joanne. yeh again(: haha. decided to get some v day chocs at clementi so went ntuc. i just realise it's 14022008 alr. so, HAPPY V DAY EVERYONE(: back to what i was saying..oh ya. and i was really smart.hahaha. i decided to label my chocolates on the bus..coolio.

goodnight darlings

no. not xxl chicken dearie. haha. too big for me. xD

She asked for one more dance, and I'm like yeah. How the hell am I supposed to leave?

2008-02-12T23:16:00.000-08:00

today's really really cool and..what can i say. i love today(: that view makes me wonder what i've been doing for the past 10 days. misses.

so..i was a little late today. so by the time i arrived, i had to go to the old parade square. yeh..and i realised only this morning that i saw the wrong day on my timetable and so, i had to go for lit. haha.it's not that bad cause the teacher dint come. hahaha. alright. had breakfast, did my gp news article and slept in the canteen. then it was gp and econs. yeh. its been real long since i played at the bball court. where's all the husband and wife games?haha.

so after school was f3 meeting. mass dance was really cool. esp with that bunch of fun people(: oh my. how i love my family((: haha. did some cheers and danced a little in the canteen and end of day. i was damn high after the meeting. esp when we walked up to the LN and to the ops room and out to the bus stop. at the LN jerome came out and i was like JEROME LOW FANG YAO(: haha. ops room was fun. i don't know why i love the entire feeling of walking there at night.hahaha. and i love exploring the ops room man. only at nights though.haha. left school at about 8pm. joanne was really nice to wait for my bus with me(: thank you assistant family head(: haha. i saw my bus when i was at the traffic light. that uber long 1. you know you know. haha. so i ran immediately when the green man started to flash. LOL all the way to the bus stop. and i made it(: happy happy.

tonight got a lot of messages. 1 of the worse ones are from someone who wants to borrow my num card. he asked me if i was free when i was on the bus on my way home. power.haha. i was really tired so dint go. the other one's from yong jin. we're actually having a 412 outing on v day. how amazing..i din't know 412's that lovey dovey.haha.

alright. i have to go watch bbt tonight. so damn long since i watched that can. oh my oh my. and tonight's a MUST SEE(: haha.

all in all, today's just great. i rate it 8 out of 10.haha i don't know what's so great about today but..it just felt really really good.((:

2008-02-11T23:37:00.000-08:00

i shall post again today.

I'M DAMN HAPPY TONIGHT. WAHAHA.

you make me happy. shalala.((:

i cant cant cant wait for tomorrow. serious.

2008-02-11T23:00:00.000-08:00

oh mans. i cant help it i feel that i need to blog. haha.

today's really bad. bad bad bad. haix. i need a brainwash.

pc wasn't that bad i guess. kinda enjoyed my pc. yeh..and i din't pon anything today! actually i'm too tired to pon. i'm not making any sense but i guess when you're feeling wrong, you're just not in the mood to do anything la. so i went for all classes and i was really attentive. for the 1st time manss. haha. i don't know why. then, daddy was being really sweet to come and drive me all the way to the dental clinic and back to school. i love daddy((: stoned for 2 hrs. oh man. i really really really want to remove these 2 hours from my day man. hell boring. then f3 meeting. quite boring actually except that my family really have very interesting people that keeps me totally entertained(: stayed back till 8:30. really late huh.haha. then we went jp for dinner. amirah's stories are really funny. hahaha. cabbed home cause it was late.

on the taxi, i recieved a msg that says. 'pls remember to bring your ODTs tomorrow'. but, i was really tired and you know on phones right, O and D ain't very diff. haha. so i saw DOTs. i'm like..bring DOTS?what's that. so i asked the person. hahaha. i just realise it's ODTs la!gosh.

tomorrow mass dance and i can't wear rono cause i wore it today. shall wear bannister. well, i hope tomorrow'll be better.((:

nights darlings(: sleep tight.

2008-02-10T09:15:00.000-08:00

oh man. i forgot to blog about something.

i found MY MISSING CRYSTAL. amazing yeh?it's like hell small and it dropped out of that phone thingy and i actually found it!hahaha. ok. i feel lucky today.(:

2008-02-10T07:23:00.000-08:00

oh my. someone actually blogged on ISC blog today. that's so totally amazing and hell, it gets me missing everyone. ok. this is random.

so i shall blog about today cause today's pretty much funn for me((:

early in the morning, daddy decides he wants to eat at toast box vivo city. lol..so we went there to have our super heavy breakfast xD shopped for awhile..daddy's the only one who bought stuff la. gahhs.haha. went home and slacked for a really long while infront of the tv waiting for olivia's reply.haha fell asleep. went bpp to get all my stuff and went clem to meet olivia. towned. quite fun talking about lemon lemon and we know who..haha. i love her really(: so we went pacific plaza 1st..oh mans. i love that stussy bag but it's like $256. oh man oh man. DADDY(: i bet he'll say use angbao money. gahhs. went far east to eat fried mars bar.haha saw jamess!((: coolio la. walked down to cine then all the way to douby ghaut(did this yst too right?haha) for dinner and to buy my fbts. yeh. dinner was cafe cartel(: 2 of us can't even finish 1 pork chop. walked ard and took 700A home.

i just tidied up my room and it's super neat now((: esp my wardrobe happy happy.haha. and yang is damn rich can. he went to buy psp today despite owning a ds.. but i really don't like that thing cause it's like. urms. i just don't like la. i'm bad with games, really.hahaha. he passed it to me before he went to sleep just now to let me try his games..so sweet right?i love him soo(: just that, i really can't play.haha.

alright. going to upload photos for oli and ju then sleep. goodnight darlings(:

8 more hours(:

2008-02-09T07:38:00.000-08:00

third day of cny.

heard some noise early in the morning but lazy me refuse to wake up.haha. woke up at ard 11 and there's alr quite afew visitors at my house..super early! haha. so i started eating my breakfast followed by lunch.lol. thought i would town with steph but she had to go do her visits so decided to ask ard to see who's free. ain't very lucky actually...haha. but still, i found sarah! yeh. so went to look for her at far east. but i was hell late cause on my way there, i saw stussy and i MUST go in. lol. so i got myself something before meeting her. lol. i want the bag and pencil case too!oh mans. so by the time i reached far east, they wanted to go taka alr. lol. so i went taka with them to get something for their mum after which, they had to go home.LOL actually i could have gone to their house but decided to join garrick syafiq and li huan instead. although i only know garrick out of the 3..haha. they are nice people though.(:

played at the arcade that don't know what thing. lol. me and garrick against lihuan and syafiq. it was really funny..lol. but anws, we won!lol. walked ard at heeren before watching kung fu dunk. it's a super stupid movie la! but at least i laughed cause of the movie..hahaha. can't decide on where to eat since we have to find something halal which makes our choices kinda limited so we ended up walking all the way to plaza sing. ate kfc and went home cause syafiq wants to watch the rugby match..haha

reached home at about 10 so went to check if the match is still on. apparently, the match started only at 9:55. LOL so watched part of it. rugby's really interesting mans. but honestly, i don't get the game.HAHA true enough, it looks really violent. just like how hard i tried to understand soccer matches, i realise i never really know them well.haha so after awhile, i dozed off. hahaha. it's not not not cause it's boring k. i was tired.haha

and ah meng died!oh manss. sad sad sad. i never knew it was a girl. but anws, that's not important anymore. she's dead. oh man. i think that orang utan was a really cute 1 :(

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2008-02-08T07:33:00.000-08:00

apparently it's CNY alr but apart from all the angbaos and 'gong xi fa cai', i really dont feel it :(

so yst..woke up and went to nainai's house. collected red packets. stoned. ate lunch. played blackjack. (coolio daddy hired me to help him deal cards. $2/round of blackjack. easy money(:) what else..last 30 minutes was cam session with dearie julia and olivia((: sweet. this year ended really really early for me. i left at about 7pm after dinner.

woke up before 7 today so as to leave house extra early to go waipo's house.yeh. we ate at this coffee town place in msia..super cool laa. i dont know why....haha. but i enjoy having breakfast there early in the morning with mummy daddy and yang((: it's always so ironic..we live in sg yet we arrive earlier than all the other relatives staying in msia.haha. well, we arrived at my nainai's house later than waipo's..haha so anyway, ate and talked and everything. took photos this year!yeh..haha. jinkai's new hairstyle is seriously shocking. oh manss.haha. left kinda early also. 3pm but i think that's considered normal. yehh.

after that, went over to cashew heights to visit cheryl and her mum. and it seems like she was having a mini gathering over at her house at that time so i got extra angbaos.lol. and it's her mum's birthday!woah.haha..went out for dinner at the rail mall EAT. yeh..nothing much today..BBT's love(:

common questions this year: why am i so tan?how's my o levels? which school? what happened to my hair? AHmazing. lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LONELY(: AUNTY(: YANG's SWIMMING CLASSMATE(:

2008-02-06T07:39:00.000-08:00

retainers hurt.they seriously do..(esp when i stopped wearing them since last july)

alright. half an hour more to CNY. yippee. angbaos from daddy and mummy.((:

dont know why i feel so tired nowadays. oh man..im getting older literally. so yst. ponned school to go town and get nothing. haha. that's bad. really bad. but there's nothing i can do about it so..yeh. then had to go back to school for the ogl thingy for cny. yep. luckily there wasnt much cars.haha.the ogl meeting was bad..cause i wasnt really feeling very comfortable but still, it was made fun with crazy people like garrick and bryan who dont know why, love to hit others.haha..went home after the meeting and daddy called to say they are going causeway point so i decided i want to take the train to meet them there but in the end, i went home to change 1st and went with them. went bukit batok 1st cause yang have to see the doctor. and guess what, i met kuan ming!coolio.haha he was in the oc tee. damn bright la!((: but it was a little late alr so we went west mall instead so i dint buy anything.haha..what a night.

then its today!yay. new year eve. so we reached school at 7am and saw how sun on my way into the school.haha...its pretty fun actually. cause we were in our ogs and og8 is always a fun group to be with(: so we had to run to get the yusheng and give it to the respective classes and ran back to join our own ogs to eat the yusheng. not bad leh.haha. then mass dance! danced with lonely.haha chicken dance was fun((: then the leaders gathered to continue dancing and cheering. was rather high.haha. oh ya. talk about the tables..super funny. garrick passed me 2 tables to carry so i just took them over then he gave me that stare. when i turn, bryan also looked. like i cant handle 2 tables. lol. then when we were walking, lonely and hendy have to ask too. even if i could walk properly, i would have dropped the tables cause of them la. haha. thanks bryan who eventually helped me in carrying the tables into the classroom(though he took over only at the door xD) lol. og8 girls are indeed different yeh?in a good way((: to be honest, the tables were heavy.lol thanks to garrick yeh.haha perhaps i talked too much about the tables but it was funny.haha. then went back to school with lonely and jieheng they all. rv and nanhua ppl were being really lame on the bus. watched nanhua idol. not bad leh!haha. then went down and did some claps with lonely and jieheng. had lunch..played asshole daidi. yiting joined us later then fish wind took over jieheng after that. its was really funny playing with them cause me and yiting kept winning and the 2 of them just keep coming up with weird comments that made us laugh non stop. haha. went home after that. we waited really long for a cab but it really dint seem that long with cheena figure it out fish wind and lonely ard.((: haha. we played mass dance songs and the 2 guys just kept entertaining us with their weird actions.lol. in the end, we took buses.haha. the 2 guys were really nice to wait till i board my bus(: after that, they went to jec to (according to them) gay.haha alright alright.

slacked for really long at home then daddy came back to fetch me to my grandparent's house for reunion dinner. it was really really sumptuous. bought ben and jerry's watched tv slacked checked out the stars and went home. tomorrow will be better i hope.haha. mummy's really nice to stay up till 3 am to make us some really nice stuff for breakfast later(: oh man. i ought to go wish them happy cny now!

a really detailed post yeh?haha.

its nearing a week. haix.

2008-02-04T05:57:00.000-08:00

today was. urm. normal(:

pc was really boring. ok, maybe not the start and end but the middle part when we stood there with totally no mood to move ard. and oh man, i attended ALL the lessons today!haha. coolio.but school's so totally not interesting today can, i cant wait to leave school today cause it felt soo dead. oh ya, so sorry jiarong!i stepped on his cracked toe.on purpose.lol.

but the people i met today were quite nice(: like nanhuarians and some random peeps who helped to brighten up my day. thanks so much eh?((: though they dint really do anything..haha. just by saying hi or irritating me actually did help in making me feel better.haha xD

RIGHT. shufen ps me today!!wahaha. lol. i ps her that day too so...nvm((: bestie yeh?hahaha.so i went out with mel jocelyn juanita kelman and jiarong instead!((: they took damn long to decide where to go cans..gahhs. in the end, we still end up in JP which is super retarded.lol. had kfc for lunch then walked ard. jocelyn really can conduct electricity yeh?haha. she had to literally earth herself to stop the static thing.lol. and my fingers hurt!haha. hendy the emo joined us after that. or rather we joined him in doing some shopping.haha.. jiarong and kelman kept disturbing my bag together i dont know why. kelman called my bag a magnet bag cause it sends the alarm ringing. haha. coolio right xD he figured my bag was really heavy so i suggested switching bag. his is super light. had ice cream then headed home!whee. it's been real long since the previous time i made it home by 6+ after school..so yay. i felt sooo comfortable((:

im going to pon school 2moro to do last minute cny shopping cause i figured i cant do it on new year eve. and i just realised i have a short gp test 2moro and im the gp rep. oh man. nvm.haha.

bestest convo of the day.lol ((:
daddy: you dont have school tomorrow is it?
me: erm ya. i havent finish buying my cny clothes.
daddy: wah, you ponteng la!
me: erm ya. eh daddy!you know ponteng arh?
daddy:laughs. of course la. skip school.
me: hahahahahahhaha
daddy: walks down the stairs saying'pontengggggggg'
LOL i've got a coolio cute daddy!haha.

so now i've got to write a real real testi for garrick. i havent tried that before!haha. coolness.

2008-02-03T06:48:00.000-08:00

yehh. went town with shufen today. ((: i love bestie. its like can tell her everything under the sky and never will go wrong. my angel indeed.

anw, found out what she wanted to tell me a week ago like finally. its kinda expected though..haha so we both walked around and the 1st stop was NUM at cine. saw hafi and it was kinda suspicious alr. LOL then we went to supercuts and needed to wait so we went to take neos 1st.haha yepp. almost forgot all about supercuts so we went back but still, we had to wait. so nvm..the wait was soo long that hafi came and join in the wait after his work.hahaha. he blew my hair la! look like dont know what. haha. i think that guy's good man. i mean the guy who cut my hair. he's name is hockee i think. cool.haha

after that went to fish and co for dinner. damn full can!haha i couldnt finish my cake. oh man. and he kept fighting with me for the sharkie freeze. lol. poor shufen got all the ice. haha. we talked and everything and it was 8 alr! oh my. and i havent even bought anything for cny. i only bought this black nike bag. i love it (: then we went to heeren for a very short while then we had to go home alr.

the ride home took really long.i've never tried walking in from the super dark and eerie road from the almond ave.haha but i figured the journey really aint as long as i always thought. its just scary. lol. hanging out with the 2 of them is really fun just that. ehem ehem. haha. alright alright. they are nice ppl.((: i received a pink wristband! and we all got 1 extra mint. lol. oh ya, fish and co should get the 3 of us to advertise their hot fudge choc cake cause the way the 3 of us eat it is like. YUMMY(: lol.

anws, today i think my brain a bit lag sia. haha. i cant think properly and i think shufen was the one suffering cause i totally cant multi task or walk in circles.haha. and i blank out super easily and take about 10 seconds to think before replying her questions.haha. the 1st thing hafi said when he saw me was 'why your eyes looks so tired?' and shufen gave a damn good reply. 'she's just damn blur la' ehems. lol. and people keep looking down on me today lo. hendy doubt i can last another late night and hafi even worse. he asked if i could lift the sharkie freeze cup =/ the world's sick today xD

going out with shufen 2moro again cause i couldnt find anything today. yay.(: hope it doesnt rain 2moro though. i want pc!((:

goodnight peeps(: cny countdown begins tonight(:

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2008-02-02T09:03:00.000-08:00

oh man. each day seems to be better than the previous..WE FEEL GOOD(: haha.

the feeling's really fantastic when you think that yesterday was alr the best you can ever get and the fun just keeps adding on the next day xD

so today had games trial omg BEST man!hahaha. really fun la.haha maybe cause we're all OGLs and we know each other alr, plus the area was rather small hence the movement aint that big so we could actually finish everything rather fast. but garrick's ~~totally so damn definitely not a gentleman~~ fine he's not since he's a CHEONG too. LOL. whatever.hahaha. but hell yeh. he made wet games much more fun for me by throwing water bombs and letting my face feel that extra dirty.haha i miss wet games laaa. i want moree!!!!!hahaha.

even when the girls were washing up, we cldnt resist the temptation to join in the singing. haha. (although none of us really remembered the lyricsxD) mr LEOW the deejay called us the toilet singers!hahaha. after washing up was cheering and games!haha. quite fun la. but our F3 cheers and wet games and mass dance and etc still BEST.LOL. billy banja with garrick is a killer. he's out to make me fall man.

after that our family went out for lunch together at mac. hendy with his usual BIG appetite, ate 2 burgers. haha. talked and everything. OMG. BEST PARTNER HOW SUN ACTUALLY THOUGHT IM JESSICA. so much for dancing with him for the past few days mansss. after lunch amirah howsun hendy zihui amanda and i went jp together. went coffee bean TOY 'R' US mac kopitiam and to the void deck at i dont know where. oh man. i love those toys seriously..not forgetting the kids there. can i buy them?haha. danced a little at the void deck.fun manss. haha. and i did the double turns to how sun coolio.lol.
PS. i wont get knock down by those CARS. ehem ehem. haha

going town with dearie shufen 2moro!!yehh.haha. i've got soooo many things i wanna buy and do. but with so little time. oh man.

i was asked about my REAL sec sch again today.hahaha..by someone i've never knew somemore. is it really that obvious? but he's rather smart cause he guessed nanhua as that was the uniform i wore on the day results was released. i wore only 3 uniforms you know. mayb st marg's too obvious.haha

im so damn hyped up i feel like jumping.((: i miss school.

guess i wont be able to sleep so soon since im feeling so energetic. good night my darlings anw..have fun sleeping (:

i'll stay with you.always.

2008-02-01T07:46:00.000-08:00

im so tired i cant think properly now alr. but i still feel like blogging.

ohman. i love today hell lots. haha. all the stupid things we did on the track and in the canteen. photo taking and mass dancing. the new dances too!((: AWESOME

luckily im at home and not at downtown. if not, ill be dead by now.

i think i seriously need to sleep alr. haha. night darlings(:

MY hendry

2008-01-31T04:58:00.000-08:00

oh man. i dao-ed. i actually dao-ed. i feel mean cause i totally dont want to dao ehem can. AIYA. im such a LOSER. upset. plus the person being dao-ed could like...nvm

ok. so we ponned chinese and i went to eat breakfast. lol. mr goh came and asked where were the others so we told him we ponned. cause i was feeling hungry and the others thirsty and sick.LOL whatever. haha but he was like saying we are old enough to think. so yeh.. then went for econs. quite fun in a way..finally played bball again after quite a few days. but i cant shoot well..sad. i've got no chemistry with the hoops man. but it was really fun.((:

family dance! coolness. den took bus home. the journey seemed long.. i dont dont dont like the guessing if the leaves had fallen game. retarded.gahhs. makes me feel like a jess. totally. today's a super duper tiring day. im feeling dead.

i dont like bloggers cause they dont give the exact time. and im lazy to change. forget it.

there's no houses for today. all lost.

2008-01-30T03:55:00.001-08:00

yay. hendry and heidi are coming for a sleepover.lol.

today was really fun.haha((:

in the morning daddy send me to school. happiness.lol. OH YA. and when we were on our way to the old parade square, i saw 211 peeps. lol. they come crash is it? but they were like forever in the canteen...haha. den aft announcements even better. ehem.haha. chinese was ok..we were kinda dead though.haha den ponned e lit. i admit ahgong.haha. we played bball. i dont like that jiarong leh. he always block me de. eeeeee. haha. had gp den geog. both were great. erm wait. geog was a little too boring. i almst fell asleep.

den was SCDC meeting. not that fun. but lonely kinda make it less boring by being my mass dance partner!haha. ty for dancing although youre not in SCDC(: you seriously cant judge a book by its cover. lonely can really be HIGH.haha den played whacko. teacup NOOBshit.haha ended rather early. went for family 3 meeting aft that. so fun!haha. thx how sun(: he's a good partner man. he's constantly reminding me to turn and whatever.haha. ty((: called daddy and he came to pick me. yay(: i dint realise ppl actually noticed i wore different uniforms. esp kuanming. he actually talked to me. woah.im amazed really. but it was a pleasant surprise(:

so daddy came and brought me to dont know where to look at this ultra small car. but apparently, it was not open. lol. and that car have to be imported so he cant literally 'take a look' haha. so we came home and played badminton with yangyang. something i dont understand, why are there often shoes in the middle of the road? dont their owners realise they dropped them?weird.

hendy dont allow them over. so now, only hendry's coming.
that's the reason why
jess is the new term for idiot
and
idiot is the new term for hendy
(:

2008-01-29T06:13:00.001-08:00

i realise i dint blog bout yst. haha.

alright. settlers' fun. at least i was kinda looking forward to it. haha. the games we played were quite entertaining.haha esp taboo..the way they try to make you get it.haha.

den played husband and wife for 1 and half hour. oh man. i dint noe it was that long. haha. but it's pure fun and laughter man.haha we laughed and screamed so loud i think the entire neighbourhood was aware of our game.haha we were like living exhibits. xD

thanks jocelyn! she went to get the donuts with me at citylink there.haha. thanks loads girl(: so sweet of you(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDAmummy((: love you loadsloadsloads.xoxo

2008-01-29T05:56:00.000-08:00

oh man. today's so damn fun lah.hahahaha((:

ok. so whr do i start? we ponned hell lots of lessons today.haha. ponned to play captain's, elope and husband and wife!haha. these games r addictive and im referring to the later 2. haha. fun fun fun((: why did we not play them during o1?haha. i was really dead during captain's though. jus dint want to run. gahs.

den GP. oh man. haha. why do i kp oh maning lately?haha. nvm but yeh. oh man.haha y do i have such such such i cutee class. i emphasize again. we are seriously CUTE. haha we pon class but we do homework without being asked to. haha. hell lot of ppl did their news article which is so damn COOL. haha. and we had class picnic near the field. it was superduper hot den sudd, i turned dark.haha n luckily we heed our geog cum civics tutor mr goh's advice to go back under the shelter cos aft we settled down outside the hall, it began to pourxD haha. so we were kind lucky yeh?((: picnic was hell fun.(dun mind my lack of vocab.haha) we played zhong ji mi ma and all the guys(including mr goh) had to do the forfeit which is to eat a donut!haha. wad a nice punishment yeh?haha but you wont want a donut when youre like full full full.haha den we played truth or sausage or whatever you call that.haha but we were kinda stuck at gail's truth part cause after i went down to change, she was still thinking who to choose.LOL anw, 08A02, thanks for the wonderful picnic. it's great knowing all of you and no doubt i love my new class(: how i hope you guys can be my PERMANENT classmates. ((: all the best to all of you though. regardless of whether you are staying in JJC or wherever. it's hard to come by sucha lovely lovely class.((:

family gathering! we did our family three dance.haha quite nice cause its self choreo. the song is damn old and i cant remember when was it when i first heard that song. gahhs. but anw, danced with mel ((: i think guys' part r cool though.haha without all the spinnings and everything.haha den the cheering part is nice. and i like our f3 cheer and the 'army like cheer' i totally 4gt. billy wad? oh ya. n im an SCDC attach. quite cool eh.haha. i dont mind SCDC if not i'd rather not be an attach (:

aft the meeting we kinda watched some soccer thing. helped the 3As to video this funny thing. lol. its kinda cute la.haha den had to wait till my daddy come and pick me to go for dinner. im sucha daddy's girl(: yeh. and hendy waited with me for my daddy. thanks hell loads yeh if not i'd have been bored to death.haha.

i need my medicine

2008-01-27T18:42:00.000-08:00

good morning darlings(:

og8 outing at settler's cafe later. cool. haha. but before that ill go meet olivia 1st.

but honestly, do we not have school today?well, that wont change the fact that i am still at home blogging on my bed.haha. so comfy. no monday blues for once.((:

time is like killing me. haha before i actually realise, 211's chalet's this coming friday to sunday and cny's next week!ohmygod. i'm not done with the shopping la! damn it. hell whatever. 211 chalet will be fun thou.haha. cny too(:

ohman. sometimes i really don't mean to stare at people like..i know it's mean esp when i don't smile. but..i really really don't mean to scare them or what.HAHA who knows. mayb i like you a lot yeh?think positive.

im finally waking up. have breakfast and prepare to leave home for whatever's install for me today!yepps

2008-01-26T07:36:00.000-08:00

i just read some blogs and oh my. i never expected 08A02 to be such a cutee class really. haha. seriously. like..i lurve my class man.hahaha. im just starting to get to know them and we're prepared to part. tt's sad.

ok..so yeh. yst was mass dance day. learnt new dances and everything in the hall.. den walked to lakeside mrt. suprisingly, the journey aint tt long. yeh. den went causeway wif mummy and yang and bought some stuff and ate and went home!yay.haha. oh ya. was suppose to be in sch by 10 but i woke up only at 10.15. haha.

today was suppose to go kayaking. but we left at 2pm after sum icebreakers.lol. went jp and had delifrance for lunch. den walked ard and everything and we all came to my hse to play wii. yeh.haha. had pizza for dinner and they went hm at bout 10.30.

y is this post so primary sch?its like detailed and with timings.haha..right..

going out with olivia tomorrow. hopefully it'll be fun. i cant wait for og outing on mon(:

just as much as i'd love to have you by my side forever, i know you'll leave me some day. so for now, i can only pray for that day to come later. hopefully never. (: i miss him miss him miss him. how many times must i say that before he appears before my eyes?

2008-01-24T07:19:00.001-08:00

okay. results aint tt fantastic but at least i can stay in JJC. so yeh. im still happy enough.haha

i really enjoy going to school nowadays. i feel crazy saying this but yeh. haha..mayb it'll be totaly different when lessons begins..but whatever, i get to experience the real JJC life!haha. maybe our attitude's a bit too positive.(:

went vivo with shufen aft collection of results and shopped and ate and marche. ohmygod. i love those jap food.haha. den saw some rv ppl..and went to plaza sing to gt fbts and saline. den walked all the way to far east. the journey dint seem tt long since i was wif bestie(: although i was really tired.haha. went far east to meet reggie and her frens. so we toked and 9+ i had to go hm. so here i m.haha. time past really fast when we tok bout them.haha.

don't be shy. don't worry too much. just try your best and ill be happy happy happy (:

2008-01-23T08:19:00.001-08:00

results will be released in about 14 hours time. no matter how i tell myself not to worry, i cant help but worry more. if only you were by my side now. i want your comfort.

a whole day of events lined up for 2moro. 1st, i hv to wake up at 6 to bath and everything. haha. den go to sch..attend non existent lessons and go for the leaders' meeting. aft tt, ill play ds wif eve den go back to nanhua. hv lunch and wait for RESULTS. the highlight of the day. den, take photos around the sch den head for vivo wif shuf.(:

sat hv the scouts kayaking thing. im super tan alr la. haha.

anw, today was really fun..though the blowing of candles is super emo laaa. i wanted to cry. actually i did but i kept it at its minimum. haha. its super sad. i want to continue having fun wif the J2s. but yeh. you guys hv 'A's to worry bout so i shd not be so selfish. den og8 dinner. quite pathetic cos only a few of us but really fun!haha. suan woo happened to be there and so, she joined us!yehh. haha. handiplast in the train is pure fun.(: and ahgong nv fail to make me laugh.wahahaha.

all the best to all my fellow sec4rians for your results.haha. i hope i get below 20. if not...can someone tell me how?

2008-01-22T04:04:00.000-08:00

i don't want to lose the only connection i have with you hence, i never wanted to leave.

today's like totally nice yet bad. everything's really fine just the part that..again, i get to see but never get to communicate with the ones i want to. it's hard. it really is. shufen and olivia to my rescue! haha.

i cant wait for revelation and going out with shufen later at night. haha. then thursday. woots! im going to cry for sure. haha. then fri there's a mass dance session with the leaders. cool! (: den saturday we'll have the scouts thingy. i dun even noe wad's tt but..haha. just go. lol. sunday have to do shopping again!haha. den comes monday. oh wait. i 4gt all bout my date with eve. we're going to have choc buffet!(: just that i dunno which day that'll be. we're going fullerton!((:

its comforting knowing soo soo many nanhuarians and some of my og mates determined to stay in JJC. i hope i can do the same. i ought to stay la(: haha.

one thing i must say though. i miss Mrs Chang and the various subj teachers. and of course, those breaks when i feel like an idiot trying to spot yet another idiot caught in the crowd..its all worth it though(: i miss you so.just that the love aint there no more.oh no.

new friends made today : jessica, jamie, bryan, siyi, dhiya, benny, oh. and one more bryan and long.(:

2008-01-21T06:09:00.000-08:00

oh man. someone please please do wake me up from my dream. everything seems so surreal at this point of time. can i just break down and cry? i don't want to go to school tomorrow. like..what for? it'll only make me uber upset the fact that ehem ehem ehem. well, i don't want to spell it out..it's pointless. but of course, i might be worrying unduly.

gahs. results' releasing on thursday. wad's gonna happen may i ask? i might just collapse and die. do save me if you see me lying on the floor yeh? im not kidding.

im feeling so damn upset damn angry damn horrible right now. this instant. cause i so so hate the era im like living in. cause there's all these internet thing. which makes me see what everyone's doing and i don't want to know. but still, i'll be curious. which is bad. nvm. i don't understand what im talking about either.

anonymous

2008-01-19T18:40:00.000-08:00

YEH! smsed shufen to ask if she's free today and her reply was like. okay. meet u in town at 2.30?woah. damn on can.((: time for serious new year shopping since i 4eva cant resist the temptation to wear whatever i bought for CNY before the actual day resulting in no more CNY clothings.haha FINE. now i wont really have the chance to wear everything cos 5 out of 7 days, i have to wear school u. anw, was suppose to go out with mummy today cos i thought she asked me so a week ago. but since she say she'll be busy, bestie's the best!ohya, i want to try the jap food bestie mentioned infront of far east(:

wth.. my laptop seems to breed ants. ewww. im just too sweet(: lol.

ohwell, yst was great! the sentosa thingy. haha. and yst was one of the few all-cheongs-feel-lucky day. well, i shant elaborate on that. hahaha. ((: everything was really fun esp the frisbee and basketball games at sentosa and the cheering and frisbee sessions at vivo.(i almost forgot bout running in the rain.haha) (: i think i was one of the last few to leave that place. i jus don't want to go home. haha. and ya, i made a new friend.haha chloe!haha.she's so damn cute but she forgot to leave me her contact. how am i ever gonna find her again?gahss. but still, thank you OG8(: and family 2 and JJC. lol. (JJC proves to be the winner for the cheering comp.HAHA)

i shall go bathe and prepare to go meet shufen! haha. this week's simply awesome. next week will be better! cos i really want to put an end to the stupid game of hide and seek between you and me(:

ohya. 2 more friends! hendry and heidi. from their initials, you ought to know who they belong to..hahaha

2008-01-18T04:07:00.001-08:00

am looking at all my previous posts. staring hard and trying not to laugh..hahaha. i was such an idiot!those posts are just gay man. seriously.haha. i've changed certain posts that i think CMI to drafts. just for my own reference...heh. yeh. which means more than half of my posts will be gone after i finish reading everything. LOL

yehh! sentosa trip 2moro! though i hoped it was only for family 2, it seems that the whole cohort is going. (pls dun mind me. i noe i LOVE repeating myself) but yeh. the whole conhort is going? am i right? oh man. hope it'll be fun and i can get to noe ppl i want to noe.=X hahaha. meeting them at clementi at 9. super early right?gahhss. meeting gail at AES 1st though. at least the journey wont be boring (:

oh. and for those hu wonder why i don't have a tag board, i had 1 that lived through the period when tagboard collapsed till it revived. LOL. but i figured out tag boards are actually useless boards. soo...i decided to delete it!hahaha. yeh. it's no longer the trend bloggers! =D

looking back at my posts, i realised how drastic my change is. thinking wise and moral wise. its as though i've grown. yet, ironically, i feel that the change is not what i might long for. im becoming so extravagant and everything. yeh. blogs are good to reflect on.

school's starting to give some serious homework like news article. oh man. but i really love ms yip our GP teacher. she's so damn cool can. hahaha. her ground rules are so..unbelievable.

rumours seems to tell me that o level results r out next friday. this freaks me out. for someone who revise 5 of her subjs only the night before the exam, what im feeling right now is only right. =X im waking up. im really waking up. now that i start yo fear. gahss.

okay. i shall go and continue reading my posts and change them to drafts before i go and sleep and prepare for 2moro!(:

goodnight darlings.

oh ya, i hope u will be there yeh. and do hv a blog to kp me updated on ur life(: im talking to u. really..u (:stop guessing yeh. its you la.

2008-01-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

i cant wait for the release of result.(: i hope i get 11 man. though i very much want it to be 6. hahaha. bt if its like 11, i dun hv to think about going to ac or jj. its pretty obvious(:

i dun understand that friendster copycat leh. coward arh.blehs. fine. im like shooting myself.

so anw, hw's life in different jcs now? dere are some ppl i wanna meet badly hence my desire to get back my result cos b4 tt, i doubt i'll return.=X i noe im not that filial but...no time!im not not not making excuses(:

yeh. borrowing st mags uniform fm annabel and stc from olivia. shall wear them next week (: i find it fun. lol. annabel's fault.haha

going ngee ann wif olivia 2moro. i miss red camp. tho it's been quite long since tt camp. actually not very long.less than 2 months. heh. but, OC is like far better so i kinda neglected it. so now im going back there with olivia!yeh. haha.

okok. my daddy went msia aft dropping me on the highway today(i felt so lost =X) thus, i hv to go to sch on my own 2moro. 184 den 185.is it? i hope i gt it right man. trust me to take 99 for so long. im so not street smart. haha.

so so so so, i have to go sleep now so i can wake up in time 2moro! LOL. luckily i blogged. i jus realised i set my clock at 5 am. idiot. waking up so early cn kill. haha. 5.45!it makes such a big diff. undisturbed sleep.(:

good night darlings (:

2008-01-14T07:24:00.001-08:00

although i ought to be asleep now already, i realise i should just come and post a quick one since ill just become too lazy.haha

lessons have started and amazingly, i am doing some homework. haha. except for the math tutorial. but thats cause i had some problem with the 1st ques and tt seriously pissed me off. haha

many things happened recently actually. i dialled 995 for the very 1st time. its pretty cool actually though it wasnt exactly that great when i had to wake up at 3 to call for the ambulance cause someone's actually not feeling that well at home. thank god everything's fine now.(:

and i've been meeting up with shufen a lot a lot lately. haha. i need peaceful retail therapy. haha. but apparently, they aint exactly very successful so far..i bought 2 items today thou. from topshop and topman.YEH. haha. happy happy (: im like a kid with new found toys. (:(:

and on this coming saturday there's this outing at sentosa. kinda looking forward to it actually. provided ppl actually do go. haha. i'll definitely be going (: mass dance!! how cool.

i cant believe it but i'm really enjoying my life a lot now. i can't say this if it's 10+ months down the road. haha. jc life is definitely going to be hectic with all the programmes lined up and lectures etc. i hope i can really cope with everything. adapting to JJC life and i wanna stay put. though i really don't know if i really should. arghs.

alright alright. i must sleep if not, i will only be more confused.

2008-01-10T07:39:00.000-08:00

im feeling like damn sad now.

chocolates!

ohmygodla.haix

sigh..

i want that correct size. i know you'll fit. but too bad you've been into the fitting room.

2008-01-09T04:54:00.000-08:00

i cant take it anymore!haha. not as in academic wise or anything. but, oh well.

its just so stupid. blehs. ignorance..im not invisible am i. gahhs. but..but..oh well.

i just hope i enter the selection test and get into JJC's shooting club.

2008-01-07T06:10:00.000-08:00

i think the past few days have made me kinda like a little kid.haha. i should coop myself up and emo abit and reflect on somethings now..

it's still those who never left your heart that is closest to you. those you know you will never forget, unable to live without and the 1st to run to in times of trouble because you're sure that they'll stay right by your side.

it's the perfect night to reminisce and then, back to lectures and new found 'fun' (:

2008-01-06T03:22:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR EVERYONE.HAHA.

IM IN JJC.

OC WAS SPLENDID.FUN.CHEERS.WETGAMES.DANCE.SCREAMS.OG8.(:

NOW, I JUST PRAY FOR CNY TO HURRY AND TADA! ANGBAOS!! WHILE I BE NICE AND STUDY WHATEVER THEY WANT ME TO IN JJC. HAHA.

WONDER WHY ITS IN CAPS?CAUSE ITS YET ANOTHER NEW BEGINNING FOR ME THIS YEAR SO, TAKE THIS AS MY FIRST POST YEH?

ALL MY PREVIOUS POSTS WERE JUST RANDOM SHOUTS AND CHILDISH THINKINGS AND THOUGHTS. I WANT TO GROW UP. GROW UP. GROW UP.

IM LEARNING HARD TO CHANGE. TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AND LEARN TO STUDY AND CLEAN UP MY OWN ROOM. I WANT TO LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT A DOMESTIC HELPER, WITHOUT A TUTOR, WITHOUT BEING ASKED TO DO SOMETHING WHEN I JOLLY WELL KNOW I SHOULD. HELP ME FULFUIL MY AIMS (: I WILL LOVE YOU FOR THAT. OH YA. AND LEARN TO BE GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL. TO LOVE THE ONES BESIDE ME MORE THAN I EVER DID. ESP MAMA AND PAPA. (: AND ALL THOSE WHO KNOWS THAT I LOVE YOU DEEP DOWN INSIDE MY HEART, JUST THAT I DON'T WRITE OR SPEAK IT OUT. JUST HEAR THE LOUD ECHOES AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND (:

AND OF COURSE, TO LOVE MYSELF MORE. ALTHOUGH IT'S ALREADY OVERFLOWING (:

2007-12-31T10:15:00.000-08:00

happy new year (:

i'm pretty sure i'll miss everything that happened in the year 2007 but actually, i believe everything's going to start only this year. my life's totally up on a different path now and i believe i'll be able to cope and adapt to all the changes pretty fast.

everything's different.
my hair.
my domestic helper.
my brother's character.
my character.
the people around me.
the school i'm going.

im no longer you little good girl. not that i've turned bad. i've just started learning how to be bad in a good girl manner.

i'm loving myself more and more. and i guess it's never ending. (:

enjoy this fantastic year! no more reminiscing. no more painful regrets. no more heartaches.

goodbye 2007. (i'm not gonna miss you much (: )

2007-12-30T23:42:00.000-08:00

im sorry. sorry. sorry. sorry. sorry.

so so so sorry.

i feel damn mean today. mean like the witch in all fairy tales.

sorry.

oh man. i wanna cry.

hush

2007-12-27T22:02:00.000-08:00

she's so fortunate
but she never realises
she came to this world empty handed
yet, she have everything this world could offer
they provided her with all the love
even the luxury not one can enjoy after years of hardwork.
before she could even lay her hands on anything
she had the privilege to take, to request, to ask for
they gave her the best of everything
she was so lucky to be under their care
yet she started to take everything for granted
she grimace at how her money's being spent.
forgetting that they weren't her's to begin with
she wondered why she was broke
when she held gold bars in her hands
she hoped she had more
when others had much less
she wished for a better life
which no one ever had
they gave her all that she needed
they were all that she needed
now, she'll learn to give
to give her very best
to learn to be that very good girl
as she realised where all that she lost came from
looking back, she had never lose anything
all that she gained was worth much more
thanks for making me the one they love
iloveyou

2007-12-18T22:18:00.000-08:00

hii.
so lonng since i last posted yea..not exactly very long.but long.
anw, im at my daddy's office now. the kl branch..pretty cool..haha
n nope, im of cos not here to work. im here for like only three days and im waiting for daddy to come pick me up cos he's in penang. waiting waiting waiting.
met sarah and timothy yesterday..not the coincidental kind. the place we went was rather boring but good enough for a quick get together..haha..
so yea..i've been hanging out with sarah pretty much lately ya..haha. her xmas party and everything..it was fun staying till like 11+ at her house since sarah's a true entertainer.lol. its a compliment..
dere's a 211 gathering at my hse this sun evening..looking forward to it..shd be fun even wif just the few of us..muahaha.
n to be honest, i dunno y i feel extremely happy these few days..lalala

2007-12-13T04:49:00.001-08:00

i'm officially broke.
yes, broke.
no more shopping.
no more fun.
no more entertainment.
a princess in distress indeed.
where's my prince?
PRINCE EDWARD!(no, not any edwards)

2007-12-11T01:21:00.000-08:00

these few days had been pretty lively for me.. all the meet ups and everything esp wif bestie SHUF.=] but please..i realli do hate the rain. it hasnt exactly stopped since the yr started has it? n now, in afew wks' time, its a new yr again!haha.. any1 wants count down?i dunno y i want to celebrate it..like make it grand!haha..

2007-12-10T09:56:00.000-08:00

sometimes i feel so sick of life that i just want to die there and then. but, there will always be things holding you back..at such a age, we shd nt be thinking so much and jus continue to live a carefree life.however, hw cn we actually enjoy life to the fullest when we have a hundred things to worry about constantly? i mean, Os. den As. uni. results. when will everything ever stop?before these end, i guess i'd have collasped or so i thought. im glad im still able to type now..

there're certain people in life that affects you most. those people are the ones who can make you cry and laugh as and when they feel like it. they control your emotion, your devil, your angel. but these people are rare. so rare that you find them weird sometimes. the closest to you usually show more or all of their emotions which are rather frightening.. but they often mean no harm..even though we're all aware of the simple fact that it's all for our own good, in the heat of the moment, we'll start to blame them, curse them and wish for them to disappear right before our eyes. but when they really do vanish, we'll start to miss them and hope for their return.

im not trying to make any sense or write some random feelings. im just writing down what im thinking of this instant to see how different people of different age view things. i might be a typical 16 yr old sharing the same thoughts as any other. but still, im undergoing the same confusion..

how we were entertained for the entire day with just 1 little toy in our right hand. till now, an entire day of shopping is not even really enough to make us happy. we ask for more every single day. if everyone is able to live up to a thousand yrs, i doubt the world has enough to provide. to feed our big appetites for luxury. everyone has this materialistic side to him or her and once its revealed, there's nothing anyone can do to stop its behaviour.

so now, im done crapping thou i dun even noe how and why i started. i'll just end.

youknowverywellwhatineed

2007-12-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

i think i'll fall in love with andy zhong jian very soon. muahaha.
if u know who he is..

2007-12-04T20:07:00.000-08:00

evenifi'vewrongedthem.
evenifiamatfault.
evenif..
i'lltrymybestnottoregretmydecision.
rightnowijustcantwaitforschooltoremember.
toleave.
toknownewpeople.
tobelievein.

2007-12-04T20:04:00.000-08:00

ithoughttheyweremybest.
peoplei'llenjoyandspentdayswith. knowi'mallprovenwrongandcompletelydecidedtogoonadifferentpath.
i'mallreallysorry.
pardonmysensitivity.
causei'mofthefaintheartedandwishfurthernottointerfereinhuseverlife. forit'llhurtmeonlymoredeeply.

2007-12-04T19:53:00.000-08:00

sometimes i really wonder. am i the ignorant one?

2007-11-30T03:15:00.000-08:00

im really not interested. just leave me alone will you. only know who to tell me your bullshit theories. go away. just away. im really not as kind hearted as you think i am. forver repeating your so called important lessons. please. im not a baby anymore. stop wasting your time and effort if you know very well nothing will go in. the more you say, the further i'll drift.

2007-11-30T00:06:00.001-08:00

realised i havent been blogging much about MY LIFE lately so here it is.

since the GCEs ended..

GRADNIGHT not all that fantastic but enough to mark the end of this 4yearjourney :)
SENTOSA OUTING ohmygod first ever furtwelee outing quote from SiIan 'better to belate than never' :)
RED CAMP 4 ngeeann's really not that bad. horny vikings :)
GENTING although i've been there like a million times, this is one of the best. caesar suite :)

come on, give me more things to update bout.

2007-11-26T10:34:00.001-08:00

its 2.30am and im asking myself why am i still not sleeping and everything. so im going to slp soon.i havent packed my bed and everything. have a nice holiday man.

2007-11-25T00:12:00.000-08:00

ifeelforgotten.
ifeelneglected.
ifeelunwanted.
ifeelforsaken.
ifeelabandoned.
ifeelinvisible.
ifeeluseless.

mewantme.

2007-11-23T23:16:00.000-08:00

givemeareason. asimplereasontofollow. tofindout. tothinkthrougheverything. togiveitallup. notworthit. noone'sworthit. itstrue. ihavetojustfollowmyownheart. dowhatiwant. pursuemiowndreams.mydesires. thedarkestsecretsnobodyknew. howhardisittoletgo. iknowiwontregretmydecision. illgomyownway. withoutanyspecialsomeone. that'smyplan.

longforgotten. theholidaysjustsolong. toolong. nowi'vefinallyseethrougheverything. perhapsiwasblind. tonotseeanythingclearly. perhapsiwasdeaf. tonothearthecalling. atleastitried. youknowimnotthekind. andillneverbe. hearmeclear.

2007-11-23T08:55:00.000-08:00

this fews says had been like..morning 8 wake up..8+++ cme hm..haha..tired..bt i've been totally late though..hahax..Red Camp had been really interesting and fun..quite a number of Nanhuarians and I saw like ex classmates!hahax..overall, the everything was pretty cool and ya..left earlier today thou.. went for florence's BBQ..hahax. nth much..helped her set up msn..lol.. VIKINGS is soo damn cool. haha.. we are like bigg and loudd and hornyy!hahax..

2moro will be boring bt i'll probably slp till like 12..hahahaha.. den do wateva i want buy wateva i need den sunday..i want go out! mayb gt my mum to bring me out. mon on i'll be going medo i guess..den fri..girls' outing!hahahax..coolness. =] holiday's r jus too short.. xmas cming. lk out for the coming party!

2007-11-20T09:13:00.000-08:00

412 finally had an outing!wheeee..hahax.

sentosa's really nice.haha.every1 was like enthu enthu. so happy...=]] although online 13, but all 13 r nice ppl..esp those hu soaked themselves and enjoyed the rain together..hahax..hope every1 had funn..

i love everyone.like everyone. really everyone. love you.